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~My Blessed Week~



This is a summary of how my week had gone. this is a post i posted on my cellgroup group's wall which very much sums up my thoughts.

"Hi cellgroup! Hope all of ur week has been good! I just wanna share sth. Im officially rejected by all local universities! NUS, NTU, SMU rejected me for my ABD/D grade for Alevels. Its a hard reality for me to accept seriously. I was so depressed for 2 whole days after my last letter of rejection came. I dint approach anyone to talk about it, but just prayed and really broke down infront of God. I don’t even wanna talk to my mom nor my close sisters. I felt downright lousy and useless and i felt that there were injustice in this world that people who could possibly score worse than me and also did not put in as much effort, still got in Uni. I felt super duper lousy.

But it was only for 2 days, after praying and hearing from God, i began to speak up to my parents and faced reality. My parents were encouraging and im rather surprised! Even my grandparents! I thought they would look down on me. I drown myself in the word of God as much as i could. I felt so safe in his presence, knowing my future is in his hands, not mine. I cried out many times that “LET UR WILL BE DONE AND NOT MINE” so that i may fufill my calling and not just live my way the glorious way i want it to be. I felt that the worse has happened to me, and i am not afraid anymore for whatever that comes my way for i have faced the biggest fear in my life already!

Never have i felt so much joy in my life! People may think im crazy, i don’t get in U yet i get so happy. But seriously im rejoicing everyday and praising his name when i wake up everymorn. I felt so energize and joy just began to fill my heart so much that i felt nth is gonna stop me from tumbling down anymore! For the worse has happened. I felt that i grew stronger. In cg mtg last week, seeing everybody praising so happily and sharing, i felt so happy, joy just filled my heart so much so that i felt that i dun feel a single grief of the failure that i had.

Many verses pop up in my mind every now and then. They are...

Isaiah 43:18-19 But forget all that- it is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do SOMETHIGN NEW. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.

Haggai 2: 18 I am giving u a promise now while the seed is still in the barn. Though you have not yet harvested your grain, and your grapevines, fig trees, pomegranates and olive trees have not yet produced their crops. BUT FROM THIS DAY I WILL BLESS YOU.

2 Corinthians 12: 9- 10 Each time He said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness. So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the POWER OF CHRIST CAN WORK THRU ME.. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses and in the insults, hardships, persecutions and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am STRONG.

Galatians 6:7-9 Don’t be misled- you cannot mock the justice of God. You will always HARVEST what you plant.

Job 23: 13-14
But once He has made his decision, who can change His mind? Whatever He wants to do, He does.
So He will do to me whatever he has planned. He controls my destiny.
I felt God telling me that He is doing something NEW with my life now, even thou i cant see it visually, but He assures me that He will open up my wasteland now to open doors and breakthroughs. I felt God’s grace is all i need. Nothing is gonna stop Him from controlling my destiny for when He has made His decision, NOTHING CAN STOP HIM. Even if more obstacles will come, i know He will surely provide me with the strength i need for He knows the way im going, and when He has tested me, i will come forth as Gold.

Im depending fully on God now for my future, i do not know where i may be heading now, but wherever He leads me, i will follow. Im not ashamed to be rejected by Uni, for i take pleasure in hardships. For I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work thru’ me.

Sorry for the looong naggy post. Well i look forward to cellgroup mtg again and hope this blesses u for the week that WE CAN TRULY OVERCOME ALL WITH CHRIST. People and the world may fails us, but God will never fail us. I am truly experiencing great and abundant joy now and hope u guys feel it too in the midst of ur respective mountains :D "

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I wanna thank God for giving me all the strength that i need to pul throught this toughest year of my life. who says Alevels is the toughest of all, facing a route where u have nowhere to turn to is the toughest for me. By the grace of God, i picked myself up and here i am! till praising Him! nth's gonna stop me now :D

i wanna thank God that MIRACLES DO HAPPEN.

1) i finally picked up my courage to visit my grandparents and aunties uncles after 3weeks-1mth of time now meeting them. i knew what they gonna ask me. "how's my uni application". i thought they would despise me, laugh at me, mock me for i am a Alevel grad, to them im suppose to go Uni and if i dun go, i will be a total disgrace and what i fear most is that they will laugh at me seriously. like "felicia finally had her day!" cus they r ppl who like to compare with neighbour and sibing's children. since i "failed to get to U", i must have disgraced them.

but guess what! i prayed before going and God answered my prayers! my grandma asked me how is my Uni application, and the moment i told her i was rejected, she says "go and complain why ur score cnt get in, call the university up! singapore education system like that?!! dont let ppl go Uni! no such thing..." so does my grandpa! he said the same thing! i felt so so so touched. they didnt blame me for disgracing them. instead my grandma say "the most impt thing is that u work hard". WOW. God u surprises me. is God speaking thru my strong budhhist believer grandma? if its is, WOW x100. i did my best and i will let God do the REST.

 best of all, both my 3 aunties were so encouraging! im totally amazed! one aunt who compares me to her daughter didnt pour me cold water, instead she just ask me out of concern and im so so so glad! the other aunt gave me solutions of other available Uni which i find useful but i m trusting God more now than the worldy available resources. it doesnt mean i wont go look for alternatives, i still gotta do my BEST let God do the REST. The other aunt who always pour cold water, when she knew i sang at timbre, she played the video so loud in my grandma hse and i felt so embarass at first, but then she began to say good stuff like she is amazed at me! wow! these words came out frm her mouth!
God indeed is amazing!

IM COMING HOME JESUS. this is the 1st time i visit my grandma hse after so long with guilt in my heart, yet God surprises me with total five shocking responses towards my Uni application rejection news and my performance at timbre. INDEED GOD IS GOOD.

when i ask in Jesus name, He gave me what i wanted.

2) my father hasnt been very encouraging last time. i dont even know how to break to him the news that im not accepted into any Uni. my mom told him, and surprisingly HE DID NOT BLAME ME NOR SCOLD ME. i think he knew i did the best i could. (i saved him 2 years of sch fees for i went in express stream and went JC). probably on account of my hard work? well, it must be God. again, God did exceedingly abundantly above what i ever ask for! my papa instead of scolding me, he straight away gave me solutions, call up his clients and ask about the available Uni. im touched! whats more touching is that, HE CAME DOWN FOR MY TIMBRE PERFORMANCE! oh gosh! he is the no.1 unexpected guest! he always think "my music is useless".

when i rebelliously bought home a drumset, he said its rubbish. when i watch videos of covers he say waste time. nth about "my music" is sense to him as he felt if only i can earn money with music, he will allow me to do all these. but WOW! my dad came down to support? is my papa proud of me? well he sure must be! the nxt night he told me his client's gf open a record or music company. He told me to burn a cd or upload on youtube for he want to send it to his client's gf to check out my videos and see whether i got any opendoors for performance! wow! i mean i m no into signing contract or releasing album solo or sign up with record company ( not saying im good or anything). but i never thought of that. i wanted to decline my dad's offer, but i felt well, since he offered, i might as well show him my enthusiasm and accept his indirect "praise" to me? woohoo! and he requested to see the video i sang at timbre! and when he see, he begins to comment and say im too stiff BUT i caught the audiences' awareness whereby all of them turned to look at me the moment i open my mouth, and he said that this alone shows i got what it takes already.

WOW. this from my dad? wohooo! i am so happy the crowd that night was soooooo extremely gooood to me! when the live band played, they just ate and talk instead of looking at the stage but when i played, THEY ALL TURNED AND FACE ME SUDDENLY?! AND CHEERED! WOW! seriously i am so amazed at what God is doing! its not like i sing very well or what. before i sang, i prayed for annoiting to come upon me and that favour of man may be upon me as well. and wow! i forgot lyrics yet they cheered for me more than ever?! wow i m simply amazed! what i am most amazed of is that my OWN FATHER ACKNOWLEDGE MY PASSION AND TALENT.wow! which means he SUPPORT ME! WOW!

my mom has been extremely supportive. i felt i did bad to her as i complained to her stop spreading the video to her collegues of the song i sang at timbre as i felt embarassed or sort of shy? and i question her why she keep replaying my song every single time and listen to it repeatedly in the train on her hp! i shouldnt have stop her, i felt bad. i have such A GREAT MOTHER! I should thank God abt it as my mom support me mentally ( althou not financially)! i mean whose mother will listen to their daughter's voice and replay it over n over again at home and on train? wow. THANK U MOMMY.

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i kept thinking thinking about what sha shared in cg mtg about what we will never know of our impact on others. this poem my bestie friend rachel link me to, basically sums up what sha said.

YOU NEVER KNOW (POEM)

You never know when someone

might catch a dream from you.
Or something you say may open up the windows
of a mind that seeks light;
the way you live may not matter at all,
but you never know, it might.

And just in case it could be
that another's life, through you,
might possibly change for the better
with a better and brighter view,
it seems it might be worth a try
at pointing the way to the right;
Of course, it may not matter at all,
but then again, it might.

-unknown

WOW. so had i impacted someone? or cause someone to come closer to God? or be more open up to Jesus?

i guess i had! just like how my bestie friend share and inspires me, i guess i sort of encourages her indirectly to know more about God too and now she got a testimony to share to me even before she accept christ! she felt God's love alrdy.. im so glad! another way i think i had encouraged someone to show her talent is thru my daring post of my awkward singing live videos. i sort of guess that my fren posted her songs too becus of me? ppl need to see someone breaking the ice first before doing it themselves. and im glad to be the first to break the ice :) and btw! my that fren responded to accepting Christ! wow surprises me! long story, but im somehow touched by her faith even thou it is only mustard seed small now, but it can overcome all mountains! and i met up with a fren who just broke up with bf and left church. well i hope what i says to her truly encourages her and impacted her! :D

we never try we never know. we might have impacted someone by that short remark or sentence we say. its either MAKE or BREAK it. so say something encouraging instead of using our sharp tongue to shoot ppl down which i need to constantly remind myself. :)

wanna share abt another stufff but guess im tired alrdy.

NOTHING IS GONNA ROB AWAY THE JOY I HAVE IN JESUS. :)

    

So thankful for my supportive frens who came down to support me for my 1st time singing live in timbre. seriously its really casual and its like nothing. Bur the holy spirit reminds me that i should not despise my youth and what im doing. :)

ciao! xD

Yo! N411

wassup, this is ChorLIN

thank you for the lovely presents that you guys have contributed to me last week!
but hey must rmb to pay up Felicia bday fund. hahax
the mic mouse is so cute but not loud enough apparently):  little kitten, Christian, is afraid of it. hahax
*perhaps, the mouse is way bigger than him*
and the shirt, my 2nd paramore tee! way cool!
thank you Felicia and Chormay to go hunt down the tee.
i know how tough is it, becoz i went there myself to find another one!

and Arjay love the lame joke about bday on my fb.(:

i have to admit, i had a blast on the whole week of my Birthday!
truely, the best birthday ever.

and i think some of you all know why~~!
thanks to.... PARAMORE! they came SG for the 1st time and it happened to be near me bday!
Fabulous isn't it? (:
wait i am asking the obvious.

see you soon!

Sermons

Check out sermons by these preachers..

Joel Osteen

Rob Bell

Paul Scanlon

Brian Houston-Hillsong

Ed Young

You can read Pst Ulf's blog here also.

Ulf Ekman

Enjoy! Xue 'en

Discerning between the promise and the command

The bible stated in John 15:1-5..

I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away;and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit.You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me. “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.

Some preachers like to interpret this verse in the way that if you do not bear fruit, you will be cut away. As a result of that people go away feeling condemned, thinking that they are not good enough because they are not bearing enough fruit. I believe that verse is misinterpreted. The focus was never on the fruit. If we are so focused on the fruit all the time, the fruit becomes the idol. If a focus is continually on growth, or success, then if you are not careful..you make growth and success to be the idol. I believe that was never God's intention.

The words, "takes away" or in some other versions "cut off" in the Hebrew meaning is really "lifted up". In Israel's vineyards, when a branch is not bearing fruit, the branch is lifted up to a higher position so that it can be exposed to more sunlight and bear fruit. That is the proper translation of the words "cut off". There would be preachers around that would say that you need to bear fruit, and use the negative experience of being cut off as a tool to get you to work harder. But that is not scriptually accurate. Therefore people who say things like we need to chop off those unfruitful has got it all wrong. Those unfruitful Jesus will lift up and edify so that they can be fruitful as you abide in Him.

We need to discern between the promise and the command. The promise is "bear fruit" and the command is "abide in me". As you abide in Jesus, you would bear fruit in the right season and at the right time. Therefore you are not working for the promise, but rather you are entering into a promise. We make bearing fruit to be a law, a system of rules and regulations if we focus that as the command. We turn the gospel of salvation upside down by saying that you need to bear fruit to be qualified. These are erroneous teachings that put people into bondage. 

Therefore in the same way, we are not blessed because we give to God but we are already blessed by God. This was the Abrahamic promise that was given thousands of years ago. A will once it is given, in this case a covenant, cannot be nullified. Therefore you are not working for the promise of the blessing but you are entering into that promise. 

In the right season, at the right time you will enter into these promises.

 

 

Xue 'en

pictures!

here's some pics to spice up the new blog!

felicia's 1st post!

Felicia here! my first post!
hey guys! jus wanna tell u that i've read all the posts but i cant figure out who wrote what! lols! so pls leave ur name behind after u post sth. ( dont know who say te mick's eatplugs thing). lol random but funny kinda. haha..and i cannot see the tagboard and links of our blogs. i keep refreshing but nth appear, is it suppose to be visible?

of all the posts, i love chorlin's story on spca dog! the biogrraphy or biblography of the dog ida is simply so touching! i wanna visit someday too! although i keep saying wanna go, didnt go. but pls chorlin, arrange wiv me a day when u r gg. so that i can join u after my sku on weekdays =D

wanna visit ida! maybe our cg can be a blessing by commiting ourselves to spca weekly? and also, we can "adopt" an elderly home and commit ourself to help and talk to the elderly there weekly =) i dont know which home to go to, anyone got ideas, pls suggest =)

im sick today and ytd. got flu so stayed home the wholeday. kinda bored cus i keep slping..

btw me xue en birthday coming! donno who still ask when's xue en bday ah.. its 16th! after that is chorlin's amd more...heard frm my mom that today's srv with dr niko was a loooooong one. didnt went wiv my mom so as to join u guys tmr! =)

bs is open to reg now!! pls log on to chc.org.sg to reg for ur various bs. weekdays oso got! every wed 7.30pm at riverwalk. i suggest all of us sign up. this is a great chance for us to meet during weekdays to fellowship and catch up! =D  every wed b4 bs we could fellowship and eat. and after bs can go home tgt. =)

btw for those who are still schooling like melvin,mick,grayson,eugenia,sam, chin hee, qi yin, ajay and vincent, here's a little encouragement for u guys! i know chorlin, chormay and bob r gg to poly soon and now no need to study, but u guys can read too. its quite inspiring that eugenia ask me to write one copy for her, so as to remind her to study hard and well for God. i learnt all these in my sku during a mini biblestudy given by an ex senior. she come back every fri frm (singapore youth for christ council) to give bs to me and the rest. anyway, here goes!

STUDYING IS FOR GOD TOO

- we are christians by chance students, not students by chance christians.

( therefore we must bear in mind that school is just a little portion of our life, our life is not build upon sch life, our life is made for God, to glorify him. while we are in sku, we study hard so as to glorify him, to glorify his creation! )

-studying is a God-like activity.

(cus God is a magnificent engineer who created all things on earth, we study to be more like him, an engineer)

-do ur best! let God do the REST!

-don't adopt a compartmental life

(compartmental = in church having this "holy- attitude", but out of church, another attitude. only when in church then love God. Love God all days of ur week not onli on sunday! xD )

-process matters, results is only the bonus.

(even thou u wana get to ur goals, the result, but bear in mind that process of ur hardwork matters too, as God looks at it)

-think about how God look at u, rather than how other ppl look at u

-have a spirit of excellence

(adopt this spirit an excel in wadeva u do to glorify Him)

-if u honour Him, He will honour you!

(honour his works; creation of studies by studying well, and he will honour u and bless u )

-God deserves OUR best

(thats why we study hard cus He deserves our hardwork)

-all things are created BY him and FOR him!

-CHRIST IS THE SOURCE OF ALL WISDOM!

( therefore when u are afraid of ur tests, bear in mind that christ is the source of all wisdom, pray and receive it from Him. infact, He knows alot better than ur teachers! why be afraid of ur teacher and subjects at times? fear God!)

i hope these encourages all of u to study hard for God! even thou u felt that u did badly in ur studies and it turns out to be unexpected, rmb that God looks at the process. results is the bonus.

but no matter wad, still study hard. give it ur best! :) CHEERS!
-felicia-

Note, please...

For this week's Cell Group Meeting, is going to Little India, Tekka center, to eat!
It is going to be pretty fun, I think.



We will be meeting at 7.45pm at Little India station!
Xueen has found a great spot to eat some spicy Indian food!
But those who cannot take the heat, NO WORRIES,
there would be others to choose from!



Let's go and make this party a day we cannot forget!

A story to be told.

Ajay, latest member of N411 btw, told me a story.
It set me wondering for awhile.
So, I will tell to you, Well, summarise it.
It is pretty long.


A man, also known as a very wise prophet, lived in satisfaction. One day, he thanked God for letting him be the wisest man on the earth. But, to his horror, God replied," You are not the wisest." And He told him in order to find him, get a bucket full of water, and the moment it is lost, he will be there.

The wise man was jealous and angry, but he knows that in order to BE that wisest person is to learn from the man himself. And so, he began his quest. After tedious searching, the prophet and his servant stumbled upon a beautiful beach, but due to the important task, they left in a hurry. But they found out the bucket was left back at the splendid beach, so they hastily returned. Beside the spilled water bucket was a man with long white mane and beard. He was in robe was snow white as his hair. The only contrast was dark complexion.

" W-wise man?" The prophet said in between heavy pants. The man simply nodded. He immediately went to his knees, knowing he was losing his dignity in front of his servant. " Please be my master!"

" I will be," The man's voice was withered and tired. " But you must not question whatever I do. By the third time, you will NOT be my student anymore." After all agreements was established, they continued their journey.








will be finishing it soon............

Mick Mick Mick

Yo mister!

HAPPY BELATED B'DAY! hahax. Sorry if it is a bit late. lol.
i hope you had an enjoyable party or something.
oh when is your chalet you are planing? hahax

Well See you on sunday and forget to bring a pair of earplugs! hahax

TO: MICK TAN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, MICK! AND GOD IS BLESSING YOU NOW!!!
hahaha!



sorry, I forget the lyrics to the birthday song,
but don't worry, we are going to scream this song into your ears on subday!
watch out, mister!



and happy birthday!
Good luck in everything you do.....

The ultimate debut!!!!

i have finally finished the makings of this blog!
any form of disagreement for the words in the blog can be changed by those who possess the password and username!


other than that, keep those fresh news (ahem, gossips...?) coming!!!
wishing all of you a blessed 2010!!!!





PEACE OUT!
Chor MAYmei.

My Reflection Aka Story

Hey guys!

lately i've been spending a lot of my time at SPCA. hahax. i work there as a volunteer by cleaning the cages for them and walking the dogs. there are a lot of happy and sad happenings there. Animals there are abondoned, strayed or totured. Well, this is a little something i got from there since i am spending like my entire life there nowadays. not anything to do with God. but i think that i should really write this to write this. to fill up the space here for the time being. here goes my little story!

I am Ida.

I remember vividly a year ago i was with mommy and daddy and their kid. i was their lovely dog. i know them so well, i know them well too. they walked me, fed me love me. i love them. i guard our home when they are not around. look out for danger strangers that take things from our home. i remember i was in bliss. the human puppy was growing, he look much like daddy rather than mummy! i was never really allowed to get close to him and he was never allowed to come near me. I don't know why. one day, daddy and mommy had friends over and they had kids too. they were at the garden chating while i rest near mommy. when the house kid came with me with his friends. the house kid boldly hugged me. i was angry and i bark and scolded(growled) warning him not to do that again. he cried and ran to mummy. i lay down. suddenly they stopped talking. i felt guilty of doing so. so i went to the kid to apologise, he ran to daddy crying. soon every thing start changing. they never really cared about my much. they fed me and never give me pads and strokes like they use too. kid still hides behind daddy and mommy when i approah them.

one day, mommy and daddy packed every thing and send them away in a truck. our home was barren nothing was left behind. i could see every wall in our home. they still fed me.then that day came. mommy and daddy came to me and stroke me and kiss me and remove my pretty collar. they went onto their car and not allowing me to get on. they say "take care of ourhome alright?'' mommy had tears in her eyes. they close the door and drove away. they left me with our home.

the next day many strangers came with helmets on and big vehicles. they seem to be plannung to distroy our home! i have to stop them. i barked and growled. i even bit one of them. soon a car came to collect me with a word S.P.C.A...

why do they not want me? am i bad? they never came back for me. What are tehy doing now? i wonder how's the kid. i know now that they are no more my mommy and daddy but i still love them. others tell me to wait for a new mommy and daddy to take me home. people here treat me really well! i really want to go home soon. new mommy, new daddy, are you coming soon?

i hope you guys don't abondon your pets! sorry if i start off like that, hahax. well. that is my reflection? hahax.

hey, if any of you want to go down SPCA to see dogs or cats or hamsters or guinea pigs or rabits, i can bring you down! at Bartley mrt station, Cicle Line. i practically live there. so do call me anytime. (:

To you, he's a dog. To him, you're everything.

CHOR LIN here!!!

Wow! Our brand new blog at last!!
i am soo excited! i am going to start off 1st! HEHEx. Well, firstly, HAPPY NEW YEAR to every single one in N411! It's a new year so let's shine for God. let's shine even brighter than last year '09.

God Bless(:

Hey!

Hey guys! Feel free to express your thoughts, your ideas and if you have anything to share just post it here! :) This place looks a bit bare for the moment but you all are free to just change the blog skin and design it exactly the way you want to. So if you feel you wanna change the blogskin or anything...write an article about anything feel free to do so!-Xue 'en